The Slippery Slope

The fall from staying on plan to a three day binge is short. EXTREMELY short!

I have been sick off and on for a few weeks. I tried to fight through it. I even kept up at the gym, keeping pace on the treadmill with a wad of snotty tissues in my pocket.

This past weekend, I fell apart. I haven't worked out since Friday. I haven't stayed on plan since Friday either.

I did, however, have my eyes opened toward my relationship with food. I found myself deciding that I was going to be off plan initially for entertainment value. Food is not for entertainment, food is for energy. Food sustains life. Food shouldn't equal a fun Saturday night.

I also found that once I let myself stray from my plan I found "excuses" to stay off plan i.e. "I am sick so I should eat whatever I want to make myself feel better. "

NO!!! I am sitting here today regretting every single bite I have put into my mouth over the past few days.

The birthday cake wasn't worth it.

Neither was the Indian food.

Nor the Cheetos.

So, now I declare that this very minute I am back on plan.

I will count my 1500 calories diligently.

I will drink my water.

I will take my meds.

I will hit the gym.

And, most importantly, I will stop and think before I venture into the kitchen to snack. Am I hungry or bored? I am I hungry enough to be satisfied with an apple or carrot sticks?

It's really time to quit screwing around. Thirty will be here before I know it.

Those first few pounds lost felt better than anything I have eaten.